The List: Day 9

List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.

1. My dad - he overcame his personal problems and became successful, loving and a great father
2. Trish - Always been there for me and taught me how to be a stronger person
3. Krysti - Pushed me to learn more about myself and encouraged me to pursue the things that I want
4. Mr Van Bergan (a teaching student) - Complimented my writing and gave me the confidence to keep at it. 
5. High School Socials Teacher - Has an essay that I wrote published in a book for the School District. He also upped my confidence about my writing. 
6. Tito - Ok he's not a person. But what happened to this little dog led to an epiphany for me and effected me in ways I didn't think possible. He helped me make up my mind about my future.

I'll be honest, I can't think of any more.  Those are the people who stand out for me so far in my life.  I am sure that as time goes on, I will add to that list.  But as for now, those are the major players. 

The List: Day 8

What are 5 passions you have?

1. Ancestry research
2. Astronomy
3. Animals
4. Photography
5. Writing

The List: Day 7

What is your dream job, and why?

This is easy.  My dream is to work with animals (because I'm not a fan of people).  Specifically, I am working towards becoming an Animal Health Technician.  This allows me not just to work on regular pets, but wildlife, exotic animals, etc. The possibilities are endless. 

Why? Seriously, I don't like people.  Over the years, I have realized that I am very unsatisfied helping people and their companies gain.  Don't get me wrong, I love graphic design. Love it.  But in the end I am just helping someone advertise themselves and their business.  Not that this is not essential, but I find it very blah.

I have a certificate in Office Administration. A diploma in web design. Four years of workplace graphic design experience.  And I don't regret these things. These were the things that led me to the path to realize what I really want to do. 

I've always been passionate about animals. It's time that I pursue that. 

The List: Day 6

What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?

Oh these are always the hardest ones...

I would have to say the hardest thing I have experienced was when my grandpa passed away.  To many people, that seems like a sad occasion, but maybe not the hardest thing.  For me, it was hard because I was raised by him. My parents were young, not ready and after shuffling when I was younger, I came to spend most of my time at my grandpa's house.  I lived there 90% of the time, right up until I graduated high school. And then after that.  And when I went to college, he moved closer to me, and I lived with him again while I finished up my schooling. 

He was always there with his repetitive stories and goofy inventions. And watching his health degrade was very hard.  And a piece of me left when he passed away. He is a huge part of who I am today. I am happy to have my father and other family now.  But losing grandpa was the equivalent of losing a parent to me, and it will always be the hardest thing I've experienced. 

The List: Day 5

What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?

1. Isis and Khonsu (the cats)
2. Making plans to move
3. Knowing that my divorce will come to completion soon
4. Having a list of goals that I am excited to complete
5. Knowing that I have the best family and friends

The List: Day 4

List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.

1. Don't be a doormat, it isn't worth it. 
2. Your graduation year, take those classes you wanted to. They will help you in the future. 
3. When you graduate, don't let yourself be pressured into taking something in college you really didn't want. 
4. You can survive. 
5. Don't waste your time with certain family members. Just let it go. 
6. Embrace your magickal lineage. 
7. Don't dwell on your mistakes, you will make them.  Learn from them. 
8. Really THINK before you decide to get married.  You might be surprised at how you really feel. 
9. Don't be afraid to ask for help.  You know that you need it and you will regret not asking sooner. 
10. You will become comfortable with yourself.  I know you don't right now, but trust me, it will come. :)

The List: Day 3

Describe your relationship with your parents.

Hmm, this is an interesting one. Let's break this into two. 

My dad and I now have a great relationship. I can't say it was always that way.  There were times that I felt I was a burden on his life. After I graduated high school, there was a time that we didn't speak much at all. Our lives were separate. But we were able to reconnect and now share a very close relationship, and I am very happy for that. 

Mom on the other hand, I do not speak to.  There is the odd communication over Facebook, but that is as far as it goes.  Yes, there is a long history there... or rather, no history at all.  My mom chose a different path in life. One that didn't involve me. I tried to reach out a few times and got burned every time. After years, I let go. There is no sense hanging on to someone who doesn't want you. 

Now, I have Krysti. She is my dad's girlfriend and has been for the last 12 years or so. I consider her my mom. She is the most amazing person that I have ever met, and I'm lucky to have her in my life. My dad is too. She is the one who listens, supports and helps me the most.  

The List: Day 2

Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

1. Spiders

I don't think this "became" a fear, it is just one of those things that I have always had.  It is not just, eww that's a spider.  I have full on arachnophobia. They paralyze me, cause me to stand stunned like a deer in the headlights.  When I was a teenager once, a spider was on my clothes that I was going to get dressed in and then disappeared.  I couldn't find it, afraid in was in my clothing.  I called my grandparents, who lived out of town, to drive into town to check my clothes for me before I could put them on.  Sounds stupid right? It is, but it is an extreme uncontrollable fear. 

2. Break Ins

I am very paranoid and anxious about my car and home being broken into.  I am scared that someone will smash in the car window, or kick open our door.  I think past experiences has just left me overly cautious and paranoid.  In my life I've had my home broken into 3 times (all 3 while I was at home). My car broken into twice.  No damage was done to my vehicles, but there is that fear that next time, it will be worse.  

3. Having a heart attack

Or more specific, having one while I am alone, where no one can call 911 or help me.  With already present heart and blood pressure issues, I just feel that it is a real risk that could happen.  And although I do what I can to prevent it and keep my heart healthy, it is still something that could happen at any moment. 

The List: Day 1

So, blogging is inconsistent for me. It's come to the point where if I don't put it down on a list or as part of my daily schedule, I won't do it. It's strange to function this way, because I used to be so consumed by my emotions that I always felt busy.

Now that it is no longer as much of an issue, I don't know what to do with myself.

This 30 day list was recommended to me and I will give it a shot. 30 days, already set topics/questions. Hopefully I can do it every day!

First on the list, List 20 random facts about yourself.

1. I was born in Fort St. John, BC, Canada. 
2. My desk is full of gaming/geeky action figures, items and collectibles. 
3. I own a telescope. 
4. I hate the heat. 
5. I'd rather stay at home, then go out to a bar and party. 
6. I over plan EVERYTHING.
7. When home alone, I talk to the animals. Like, full one-way conversations. 
8. Survivor is my reality TV guilty pleasure.
9. My toothbrush disgusts me.
10. Bellybuttons also disgust me.
11. I like to study history. 
12. I've traced part of my ancestry back to King Edward I
13. Getting the mail is exciting to me. Like opening a Christmas present! lol
14. I have a collection of old books from 1200-1800.
15. I have a Diploma and a Certificate.. and am working on my second Diploma right now. 
16. 90% of my socks are a fun/funky color or design. Solid color socks suck. 
17. I'm a little addicted to my computer. 
18. I like to do old lady things like cross-titch, crafts, etc. 
19. I keep the TV on when I'm home alone, because the noise makes me feel not so alone.
20. Halloween is my favorite time of year.