Changing With The Season

Look, it's my blog and I'll post as little or as often as I want to. Truth be told, a lot has been happening and I just haven't been able to bring myself to sit down and write about it. Part of is was that I didn't want anyone to know yet...and the other part was that I really hadn't dealt with it myself yet.

Last time I posted, I was having some health issues (as usual!). Honestly, those are still going on. The doctor now has an idea of what it is. It's not life threatening. It's rare, but mearly annoying and not anything that will require drastic measures. We are just waiting on some testing as of right now.

Moving along...literally. I will be moving in October to a 1 bedroom apartment. The reasoning behind this is that Josh and I have decided to split up. This is a mutual decision, upon an few incidents that made both of us realize that we really are truely not happy. Not that it doesn't make it hard. I spent a good couple of weeks in a haze going through every emotion. But I've come to terms with things, and I am looking forward to being on my own. It's way over due...

Falling In

It's not quite like falling in a pit. More like you were walking through the bush, stopped short at the hole and are wobbling back and forth, trying not to fall in.

That's what it's like when you know that it's coming. You know you will fall, it's just a matter of how long you can hold on and whether or not someone pushes you in.

Life is out of control for me. Both good and bad things are swirling around me at the same time...fighting against each other...deciding which one will win and get to affect me that day. I want to give in and let everything in all at once and see if it makes me implode (or explode even).

But I can't..and I won't.

I know this is another of my famously cryptic posts. But some things should not be revealed until...well until it is the right time. A select few of you may know what I'm talking about...but that is a very few indeed.